For way too long I have been going to bed after 1:00 in the morning, dragging myself out of bed the next morning, being too tired to accomplish very much during the day and then sitting around in the evenings feeling pissed off with myself because I’ve wasted so much of the day yet again and being too wound up to be able to go to bed even though I’m barely keeping my eyes open at 9:30pm. At around 11:00pm I get my second wind and the next thing I know it’s 1:00am again and I’m stuck on this treadmill of stupidity for another day.
I feel like crap, the kids cop a grumpy mum, the house is barely under control and the days pass by in a blur of exhaustion. And it’s all self-inflicted.
Tonight I have a sore throat and the beginnings of a nasty behind the eyes type headache, I should do a couple of hours work for one of my jobs but if I start doing that now then tomorrow is going to be horrible.
I’m going to bed.