It just went a little haywire there for a while. For most of February I’d been feeling really down, overwhelmed by the smallest things, unable to get going on anything much, grouchy, stressed, wanting to spend my days curled up in a corner in denial of reality and generally pretty unpleasant to be with. Then suddenly, for no apparent reason, in the last few days the grey clouds have lifted and life is good again. It’s weird but it’s good, I wish I knew why ’cause then I might be able to do something if things go bad again.
I was trying on clothes this morning and found myself grinning at my own reflection and thinking “you’re ok girl, we can do this” (apparently I became plural for the purposes of self pep-talking), which may have something to do with recording a 1.1kg loss this morning after several weeks of gains due to out of control binging, or maybe it’s just because I suddenly feel like me again. So here I am almost back where I started and very oddly feeling pretty damn good about myself, my body as it is here and now, and life in general.
I also had one of the people I weighed tell me she loves coming to the meeting because I and the other staff are so wonderful – that helps with the ego boosting too 😉
(If you’re wondering what happened to my weight loss ticker, I got sick of looking at it every time I blogged so I stuck it right down the bottom, it’s still there and I’m still updating it but you have to scroll all the way down to see it.)